ho mung

fart jor din

maybe i need a break from everything.

im scared. so very scared. so terribly scared im trembling.
and i cant breathe.
i start to pray,
fingers locked into each other as tight as possible
they melt into each other
i mumble and mumble and mumble
words soon run out and mouth's dry.

i hate to be helpless. so very helpless. so terribly helpless im shaking.
and i cant breathe.
i start to wonder
if my prayers are answered
i cry and cry and scream
that i love you so....

"*$&$%^A^(!&

ngor jau fai bau jar lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ding nei goh fai rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

if i've a gun i'd shooot you right in the head!!!!!

ROAH

there's a reason why im so flat and round! im the perfect airbag/ dartboard no?

come on come on come on

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

u guys master the art of 'changing face' in szechuen! rarhhhhhhhhh

gau meng rrrrrrrr!!!! ho lar mung rrrrrr!!!!!! ging seung da yann lohhh ng goi!!
ho seung gong cho hau rrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

ngor din la! :S



take a deep breath and carry on!?

After All

After all by Luisa Sorbal. so sad yet so right.

im sorry for disappointing you. it's the very very last thing i want...

i remember i first hugged you into sleep and wonder how we got to hold hands so peacefully. hahaha

so it's the first time
- we watched jap cartoon together
- saw fireworks
- sunbathed on the deck
- we had lunsj on the little island
- we were spotted (and hopefully the last!)
- we tried darjeeling first flush
- i danced for you :P

i want to say goodbye to those dark nights but can i? i didnt mean to push you away... i simply didnt want to hurt you. could you just keep smiling for me? it sounds foolish no? i also simply want to tell you i feel so so so super lucky to have you.

Recap

- visited Frankfurt for the first time. Weather wasn't so good n it's v commercial like hk. There r some nice shops ard hotel n old churches. Hmmm and loads of jap n Thai restaurants. Thts about it.

- my very first conf on gas price. A bit excited seeing some old faces. Never mess w Russians n I really hv no patience for slow ppl.

- sorry for upsetting you... N it's quite terrifying....

- lazy sat n thx for picking me up. Now u r sound asleep like a baby hoho I could attack you! Just that I am too nice wahaha

- so super stuck w my new topic I wanna die arghhh n don't wanna go back to work nxt wk ;(

- gonna improvise Alaskan crab! Yay!