are you a hypnotiser?

am i a hypnotiser? i guess i am, but not a very good one.

does anyone have a trik to hypnotise me forever?

mali mali mo.

I'm a time traveller are you?

the sleeping beauty got awoken and she threw her toys/ ashes outta the pram. last yr i was shadowing Yeo at hilton when the volcano erupted. i felt bad for those people stranded in london and i hope this yr i wont be the victim..

my mood swing has been quite terrible for the last few weeks. i wonder if it's my brain serum, or puerly the oestrogen (if i do have some) or stress from everything. it's like a viscious cycle the more i think about these the more i hate myself and the more i try to talk myself out and the more i think about these. so i take a deep breathe and let it all out slowly hoping they'd evaporate.

maybe im stereotyping people, or men. maybe some women shout too. i was lying about me not being fragile... my eyes well again. how embarrassing... P teased me about my long lasting memory before i've got 32Gb RAM and prolly 1Tb storage. i duno. as though i cared. i wish i didnt.

it seems i have a few different faces. the sunflower, the dark knight, the penguin, the judy abbott, defo not the catcher in the rye (such a boring book) and of course the little me from moomin valley. i've drawn the curtains open and switched the lights off, unusual eh, it's pitch dark outside. a clear sky without sparkling diamonds. it's quiet and deserted, yet i heard some crimes in action. i tried to focus on the flicker of my candle but it looked like the tongue of the serpentine ready to take me in. the whole of me. i still belong to the long long night. sometimes it could be peaceful sometimes not. i listen to my heartbeat and forget about everything. and slowly, before i realise, i collapse - forever.

i hate myself

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