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ngor jau fai bau jar lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ding nei goh fai rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

if i've a gun i'd shooot you right in the head!!!!!

ROAH

there's a reason why im so flat and round! im the perfect airbag/ dartboard no?

come on come on come on

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

u guys master the art of 'changing face' in szechuen! rarhhhhhhhhh

gau meng rrrrrrrr!!!! ho lar mung rrrrrr!!!!!! ging seung da yann lohhh ng goi!!
ho seung gong cho hau rrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

ngor din la! :S



take a deep breath and carry on!?

After All

After all by Luisa Sorbal. so sad yet so right.

im sorry for disappointing you. it's the very very last thing i want...

i remember i first hugged you into sleep and wonder how we got to hold hands so peacefully. hahaha

so it's the first time
- we watched jap cartoon together
- saw fireworks
- sunbathed on the deck
- we had lunsj on the little island
- we were spotted (and hopefully the last!)
- we tried darjeeling first flush
- i danced for you :P

i want to say goodbye to those dark nights but can i? i didnt mean to push you away... i simply didnt want to hurt you. could you just keep smiling for me? it sounds foolish no? i also simply want to tell you i feel so so so super lucky to have you.

Recap

- visited Frankfurt for the first time. Weather wasn't so good n it's v commercial like hk. There r some nice shops ard hotel n old churches. Hmmm and loads of jap n Thai restaurants. Thts about it.

- my very first conf on gas price. A bit excited seeing some old faces. Never mess w Russians n I really hv no patience for slow ppl.

- sorry for upsetting you... N it's quite terrifying....

- lazy sat n thx for picking me up. Now u r sound asleep like a baby hoho I could attack you! Just that I am too nice wahaha

- so super stuck w my new topic I wanna die arghhh n don't wanna go back to work nxt wk ;(

- gonna improvise Alaskan crab! Yay!

are you a hypnotiser?

am i a hypnotiser? i guess i am, but not a very good one.

does anyone have a trik to hypnotise me forever?

mali mali mo.

I'm a time traveller are you?

the sleeping beauty got awoken and she threw her toys/ ashes outta the pram. last yr i was shadowing Yeo at hilton when the volcano erupted. i felt bad for those people stranded in london and i hope this yr i wont be the victim..

my mood swing has been quite terrible for the last few weeks. i wonder if it's my brain serum, or puerly the oestrogen (if i do have some) or stress from everything. it's like a viscious cycle the more i think about these the more i hate myself and the more i try to talk myself out and the more i think about these. so i take a deep breathe and let it all out slowly hoping they'd evaporate.

maybe im stereotyping people, or men. maybe some women shout too. i was lying about me not being fragile... my eyes well again. how embarrassing... P teased me about my long lasting memory before i've got 32Gb RAM and prolly 1Tb storage. i duno. as though i cared. i wish i didnt.

it seems i have a few different faces. the sunflower, the dark knight, the penguin, the judy abbott, defo not the catcher in the rye (such a boring book) and of course the little me from moomin valley. i've drawn the curtains open and switched the lights off, unusual eh, it's pitch dark outside. a clear sky without sparkling diamonds. it's quiet and deserted, yet i heard some crimes in action. i tried to focus on the flicker of my candle but it looked like the tongue of the serpentine ready to take me in. the whole of me. i still belong to the long long night. sometimes it could be peaceful sometimes not. i listen to my heartbeat and forget about everything. and slowly, before i realise, i collapse - forever.