The Horrid Amsterdam Trip

the last for 2010 is finally done! it's such an eventful event, too much drama that i'm completely exhausted. disappointed - yes, but im glad i kept everything under control and my team's helped me so much.

just a quick recap of the chaos -

1. BA cancelled heathrow flight and agent wasnt informed. i rang BA to put us on Gatwick

2. dashed off to catch the train, got stranded for 3hrs. someone farted.

3. S was impressed with my positiveness..

4. got a new boarding pass just in time and we flew to the gate. Yes i can run (if i need to)

5. had a few drinks with J, D, K and K @ radisson blu without any dinner.

6. got woken up by Mark at 6 hving only slept for 4hrs. John was stuck at gatwick. workshop's to be rescheduled. K wasnt happy...

7. you arrived cheering me up. so good to have you there. and thanks for the gloves. they ll have a place in my handbag for the whole winter. :)

8. more chaos. 2 speakers dropped out due to flight disruptions & airport closures. john jumped in to cover 1 session.

9. thanks for picking a super duper lovely restaurant to calm me down. i hope to go back one day.

10. so now you see the stubborn side of me.. hehe

11. got up at 6, more bad news. chairman & pierre couldnt fly (after we put him on 4 diff flights in 2 diff airports). found a new chairman. rearranged everythg. it kicked off and went off well.

12. more delays at the airport. bumped into John. had some really cheeky laughs!

13. more delays, my eyes welled... thanks for comforting me though.

14. BA asked if anyone wanted the xmas souvenir gadget back - S's!

15. another 1.5 hr wait for bags at heathrow. downpoured. dropped J home before me.

16. finally i got home safe and sound at 4.30am....... a 10hr journey with only 40mins on the plane...

i just can't tell you enough how much you've done for me, and how much i appreciate. and how much i wish you're here...

the more i think about it the more i find this ridiculous or myself ridiculous. i can only recall those vivid flashbacks which are not so great. in so many ways they are my ghosts . and this's the reason why i hate birthdays.

Hallelujah

the curtains of noughties will soon be drawn. on a beautiful sunday i watch the clouds move and form, regaining my consiousness from the not too helpful pills, while Jeff Buckley sings for me. everything is so peaceful and i was absorbed in my on reflection. i've truly been a super blessed lucky bird. our lives crossed and paths intertwined. it was an adventure for me, if not us. thank you for everything, for everything we shared and learned.

now i equip myself for another journey. what the future beholds i've not a single clue. i try to enjoy everyday and i know you'll guide me all along, as destiny calls.

how much i wish you could sing with me, laze with me, and just be with me. it wont be long before you bring me warmth again.

i give thanks for always being loved and cared for. <3

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self appraisal

i now see why you said me and her look alike. or act alike. your guess is always right. perhaps not a guess, but rather you're so good at reading me. i wish you're here to see me fly up high. yet no longer like my fave song - being carefree is a luxury.

i'm lucky that i don't have many strings attached. and this doesn't mean i have a fall-back plan.

aggressive and opportunist, you can call me a bitch at work. that's fine. i try not to part with my morale though. it's this integrity i value. but at home, i just wish to be myself. gosh it sounds i've schizophrenia. or multiple personalities syndrome. o well.

in other words i understand better what i want what i need and what i should hope for - maybe a pair of christian louboutin? or a Preen dress? or... just a cosy home that holds all my fave furniture and lil' decorations with a fire place to keep me going at night...

sounds like this entry is dedicated to myself and you, even though you would never read this. i know you'll know in 2 months' time. i hope you'll see the changes, but i'm still the mini me 5 years ago - who'd scream on the street, bullshit after a drink, and care for your family.

now i really ought to get back to workkkk... while i can't take that comment off my mind - am i really a controller?

p.s. my new fave parfum!! i'll get that! :D

ROAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

piss/ peace off.

bunni is currently branded explosive, hazardous, with severe mood swing.

don't jump on to her nerves!

all i want is peace and sleeeeep. why can't i sleeeeeeeeeep?!?!?!?!?!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

woohooo i'm back!

after the refreshing yet short summer, the season starts again and 3 trips in a month is almost unbearable when you so need the phone. cant be happier that i'm back!

and yes it's been a fruitful month, at least for me? both shale gas and ancillary - my own babies - went really well. not perfect (i really want a perfect one - excellent topic with excellent line-up with excellent hotel/ hostess/ AV/ presentations/ discussion... is it realistic?) but good enough i guess. when i got in this morning, the new girl told me she spoke to a delegate in shale and that person loved me! i suppose it's these little things that get you going. and i love the Amst team! they're so cool to work with! ancillary was a crowd puller too!

the last one to prague.. i was super worried. first it's not my proj so i knew nothing about process safety (i was put to sleep after researching for 30mins) and let alone those people.. the number was a new low but with 4 sponsors onboard.. on the day the workshop leader threatened to pull out if ABB/ Ryder Marsh would sit in. nonetheless i heard a lot of positive feedback so it's all cool now! and i joined the sponsor/spker for a night out. don't ask why we're having Argentina steak in prague. thats how it's. and never did i realise the beauty of the city at night! it's like the grounds of Hogwarts!

so these few nights i finally have the luxury to slow down a bit and recollect myself. when i asked myself what i've achieved in the past 7months, obviously nothing major but it's a great step to understand myself better? i know my strengths and weaknesses. now it's a phase to work on these and am glad people are kind enough to give me pointers. and then i'll see the bigger picture in life. fingers crossed. :)

i'd have loved to write more but feeling abit sluggish now. shall come up with something juicy. before that happens, nighty!

blah

it's just hard to play a duet. solo is the way...

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how can ppl be soooo stupid and lazy!?!?

it's simply unbelievable!!!

and they're all driving me mad!!!!!

grrrrrrrrrr*