do you live for yourself or others?

but who gave you the rights to live?

life is not easy....

neptune finally begins moving forward after 5 months of retrograde motion in piscean house of dreams.
it will return to pisces in feb 2012, but the intense emotional journey you'll be on for the next 13 yrs begins now.

oh dear!!!

我想...

我想成一塊楓葉
我想成一團浮雲
我想是藍天
我想是冰薄
我想飄遊世界
我想煩惱盡消

就是, 太多我想和如果.

maybe stop asking ''why can't i'' and start thinking ''why can i'' ?

Sweet sat

After a turbulent week here comes my fave time - weekend w u. It's unfortunate I could only half surprise u at paddington. ;( but I love making dinner for u n this time I experimented crab ravioli n herb crusted baked haddock w leek n exotic mushrooms. I love our new Xmas decors they look v nice n simple :)

It's the last wkend in oct n the weather s amazing. Getting excited about the Xmas carols n cirque at royal Albert hall! The walk at Hyde park was lovely I enjoyed the scenic autumn trees all in diff colors blended into a harmony. A splash of golden orange mixed w crimson red maple leaves n backed up by the forever green pine. The trip to whole food was nice too. I jus love shopping w u.. I lov spending time w u even If u snore... Hehe

It's nice we caught up w em n al over dinner at cafe des Amis. I'm proud to b urs ;) I hope yer not going to hv a headache w all those red.

Now it's time for bed I love u xxxx

when an imperfectioner is a perfectionist.

thoughts of the day

my patience is running out - that is, if i ever had any

Michelin Guide GB & Ireland 2011

All GB & Irish chefs could finally breathe last Thurs following the announcement of the 2011 Michelin results. Hearing the verdict some might want an appeal some shed a tear or two for the victory. I've never been a massive fan for this world-acclaimed gastronomy bible. it does garauntee good food (generally speaking) but never promise you a good lunch or dinner. it's often biased to award restaurants with perfect ambience and presentation of the dish but forget about the essence of what makes up a good meal. it's the atmosphere and company and conversation. i've had a lot of michelin 3 stars dinners at home or elsewhere which're much cheaper in price. indeed a lot of 'dai pai don' (market stalls) in HK are truly heaven. you don't have to worry about etiquette nor being too loud nor dropping a fork or something. i also like street food in evening markets. the lil couple behind the counter caught you unexpectedly with their grilled octopus fishball or homemade sweet soup. sometimes you just dont need the very refined lemon sorbet to clear your palete.

anyways back to the point skimming through the list i'm a lil surprise our dear old friend Mr. Blanc didn't make the 3stars, whereas the below were awarded 1 star(!?):

1. Hakkasan - this's just an upgrade of Wagamama with super loud music!

2. St. John (Clerkenwell) - I feel that they deserve a 2 star. I love their thriving and simple menu they made me love chards and mallard and bone marrow smoothing over watercress and toast!

3. Galvin at Windows (Hilton, Mayfair) - ng lar hai r!? their food/ service dont even value 5quids of my money!

4. Sketch (Mayfair) - clearly this one little sparkling star is given for their decoration.. and that's it.

5. Arbutus (Soho) - it's a very good value restaurant but a star is a bit exaggerated. i still remember their fish stew was way too salty..

6. Yauatcha (Soho) - I do love their cocktail menu, but im not so sure about 1star..
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Despite the much hyped star-star-star glamour, i personally reckon all chefs who've worked hard last year and tried to design an interesting menu to give a hearty smile to customers should be recognised. it's tough to work in the kitchen and all the interaction/ connection with their clients is through the little dish. they are behind the scene protege and i surely think their dedication should be praised - the same for your wife who makes dinner at home for the bossy mister!

The Booking Office at St. Pancras Renaissance Hotel

The heritaged chamber has finally been renovated to the grand Renaissance at St. Pancras. I've witnessed the whole project from start to finish :) We used to be able to steal a little peek from our Judd St. mansion of the top of the red bricked building. To compliment a special week after tedious negotiation, we headed to the Booking Office for a hearty English dinner.

Having arrived a lil early we first had a cocktail at the foyer. To my disappointment the cocktail list was a little uninnovative... We settled for the pineapple long drink with rum with raspberry and mint. It's served in the traditional 1/2 pint silver mug which I decided it's best for prisoners... It's actually better to have your drinks served at the foyer than in the main bar as it gets soooo packed during happy hour! We were moved to the table in the main dining area BUT my back was facing the other entrance which they should've used double doors and that means i's froze most of the time.

The menu was simple and short serving traditional English food. I must say i'd do a better job in interior design... hmmm.... we tried the duck/pistachio terrine and butternut squash soup for starters. i was amused that they didnt give us starter cutleries... and my plate was placed the wrong direction..!!!! the terrine was nice and firmly held with a bit of crunchy bite of nuts. the gooseberry chutney was too sharp to mr. whitley's palete though. he enjoyed his soup just a bit too big in portion and i felt it could have been a bit more salty and creamy. the bread was to perfection though!

the mains came swiftly. the piping hot chicken mushroom pie looked yummmmm! it reminded me of my childhood! my mom'd get me mini chicken mushroom pies for tea :) the puff pastry was very light and fluffy! and the white sauce was delicious whilst the chicken wasn't overcooked! my sea bass was a bit boring though. esp they gave me lots of beans and potato which i hate... im glad the mixed greens were not heavily dressed and it's v fresh. =]

overall the service's not what you'd expect in a hotel restaurant but i do love the atmosphere in particular with the live band music! you can also watch other diners savouring over Eton mess.

thank you for the treat i love you.

p.s. my new objective this year is to source new ingredients to pair and perfect my sauce.

What do you love most?

?

the chronicle of 66

so Em walked into the office and said 'Alex thinks you should quit your day job and be a writer'. i wonder if they're being sarcastic :P

but i do enjoy living in my own lil own shelling from the outside. it's like i loved talking to myself. and still do. oftentimes i psych myself up or get overwhelmed. hmm.... how much i wish i could just live in my utopia and be self-sufficient. or maybe i should be a monk or nun and join the fan club of god.

you are always on your own so stand on your own two feet.....

never have i been a super organised girl in life most prolly cos i've been a lil' spoiled with the help of aunts... so i never had to make my bed, never had to pack anything, never had to iron/ fold away clothes. and everytime i move there's always someone to help...

it's the first time i (try to) go through my boxes properly and there i found my precious memories. there were piles of cards, letters, little notes, postcards from my dear friends. some were sent from HK (while they're bored in classes or prepping exams), some from canada and the States, some from the uk. all these weigh a lot and mean a lot to me... i even found this CD wrapped in scraped paper from Ivan with a few very sweet words. and L's little note reminding me of the first half term and the first time i played fireworks with Hei on brighton's beach. and P's going to fortune teller for me. and C's doubts for uni choice. and all the V's days cards. and my 2 ex's letters... they are ever so sweet and innocent.

thank you so much for loving me and looking out for me more than my family does. how ironic. all these have been branded and stored in my super memory chip.

xxx

Jours Apres Lunes

Vince Oversized White Tee

D&G Mary Lou Cross Body with Snap

See by Chloe Soft Carmel Double Breasted Belted Coat

Joseph Black Soft Mohair Block Color Sweater

a little bit of day dream...

the dream list

- villeroy & boch set
- nespresso machine
- a nice pot of orchid and flowers
- b&w pictures of us
- 2nd flush darjeeling and green/ rose tea
- nordic bread
- vipp laundry basket (as requested by you)
- lots of candles, preferrably by diptyque
- very comfy leather sofa with cushion and a nice allergy-proof throw for us to cuddle on
- mini barbe set
- alessi tea set
- a round dining table
- the same light bulbs at wright bros!
- muji slippers

the optional
- tanqurey no.10
- cowie bay
- chocolate(s)
- manchego & parma ham & very sour blueberries
- hagan dazzzz & italian gelato
- variety of fruity jam & butter

the must-have
- lots of laughssssss!
- cosy jazz music
- nice homey dinners
- relaxing sat breakfast (croque madam minus cheese...)
- sunday walks
- eco heater
- lots of cuddles
- modern family & west wing & films
- massage
- unlimited and unconditional love
- y.o.u.

stressful yet memorable weekend =)

some people could just be so unprofessional and disrespectful not just to their jobs but themselves. it's awful to work/ do business with these idiots but what can u say...

funny weather over the weekend. drizzle shower and sunny spells! london's blessed.

had tea at Nigella Lawson's cafe attached to saatchi saatchi. i do like the ambience and waitress. the wine was good too! was abit disappointed with this month's collection. nice walk around sloane sq.. heheeheee... esp at tiff's! it's the first time i go in and try a ring with u <3

and i love making u breakfast so so much. it's a nice sunday walk on the heath despite all the horrible dogss! they shd pay tax! grrrr* we'll never go back to that pretentious cafe again. super duper overrated! but i see u did indulge urself in those flaky cheese... =.=

now i cant wait to see u in the leather jacket! i can be ur personal stylist - if you trust me enough. nice bargain and sorry i wasnt really listening in the cafe as the ice cream was tooo gooood! and thanks for going to china town w me i know u dont like it.

still cant believe u sneakily finished all the choc when i's in the shower..... when we live together i'll stock up the cupboard with crisps, freya choc and cakes.... dont take revenge with hagan daz though!

i miss u....

5 nights to countdown

it's been a week since you're gone... and my headache wouldn't help.
the news says michele bachmann won the mock primary election in illinois (or iowa? i cant remember..) - what a coincidence with me watching the west wing. i don't want sam seaborne to go... and how much i wish i had the wit of CJ Creg and humor of president bartlett. ok im brainwashed i know...

the whole day i've been thinking of our sunday routine having brunch together esp when i's in hampstead... i's thinking nxt time i could try cure gavaldax myself and make u egg benedicts hehehe!






and no so good burning my hand it's even darker than my already super tanned skin... from the look of it it doesnt seem to have blister so thank god as i wont be able to refrain from poking it..



and i got pushed to sit on the grass.. im not a very nature person im sure there're poo poo on the green.....!!!!! but all in all it's a nice day i got treated to 2 scoops of ice cream yay! really wish you're here esp tonight i've been missing you. perhaps i shd have had a glass...

first summer trip 2011 (3)

Day 7- Vigo

the little driving trip soon came to an end we had to drop off the car. it's been a really good boy who didnt need much feeding. i didnt have a very good experience of NH hotel in Frankfurt (i mean they're ok but not too a 5 star standard...) but this one in Vigo's not bad at all, despite the funny layout. i concluded Vigo's a town for dogs and pigeons and c9 too...

we had some fun at the shopping mall and the chief advisor gave some good tips in scarf =) i'll wear it in Sept in berlin! i love it too!


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Day 8 - Porto

we took the train down to porto and didnt realise there's time difference! hey we're back in GMT! the train ride wasn't so bad but baby aint the biggest fan of portugal. indeed he kinda hates - 'why is it so rundown and tacky? why do portugese look so funny? it seems we're in chile or peru' said him. it's way too hot the tram ride certainly helped. bunni got burnt having stayed in the sun for merely an hour and we needed to go back for a fiesta. but it's a nice little town for a day and a day is more than enough....



last time i's in porto i passed by this Majestic cafe a few times and finally i got a chance to get a taste! it's very french and quite grand. obviously one of the (few) best options you could find. they do very fluffy toasts kinda like brioche. i'd have liked it if it's not so thick and smeared with jam both sides... i gave up after a thin slice. it's also v bizzaire that waitors are all equipped with a 70s walkie talkie to take your orders - they've this proud look that they must've believed it's the most high tech gadget on earth which could beat the hell out of apple...!



we settled in a very nice restaurant by the river with a neutral ambience. the waitor was very diligent and attentive. he kept his head down the whole time. i wonder how many mouths he has to feed and we gave him a better tip. it was a really nice dinner even without wine - we decided portugese white wasn't to our liking and would rather leave this out (and after all we've drunk too much it's time to detox!).


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Day 9 & 10 - Lisbon

unwillingly it's come to our final stop of the adventure... the high speed train to lisbon was fantastic!!! you almost felt like you're in business class. haha. i love playing chess with you! im working on it everyday so soon i'll be able to beat you.

can you believe lisbon is even hotter than porto? you're literally roasted in this big open oven... it's full of americans and germans with no sight of english. and the locals have funny dressing style and they're so so so so so THICK! the first night's dinner was such a rip off i cant believe baby's playing Mr. Nice. sigh... man.....



look at these statues. their faces are all twisted because of the burning sun! 'where is the air con?' they shouted in union!



it's our last dinner before going home. bunni picked this restaurant it's not bad at all with a fish counter at the centre. baby ordered oysters & groupper. so a grouper eating a grouper. hmmm! not a promising sign - you are what you eat. we finished off having a coffee at the natinoal theatre's cafe. i'd never trade this lime sorbet with anything else. it even had lime candies!!



so lisbon marked the end of our trip and however much i hated to jump on the plane we had to, except BA will always be BA... and with a full troop of portugese wouldnt help. sigh.

just want to thank you for everything and all these little memeories. i hope you wouldnt refund me for a new tomtom / co pilot nxt time we explore. i miss u loads and it's been such a fun journey with you, esp when you get so wound up with menu...!

first summer trip 2011 (2)

Day 5 & 6 - Santiago de Compestela

hola santiago! no one could ever fall out with this little city of heritage and stories! it's so beautiful and you could tell how much $$$ the local gov makes! you cant mistake their university campus and the number of hotels on offer! weird enough every hoteliers would take you for a free tour of their rooms and 'give you a special rate'. bunni has simply inherited the gene for bargaining... we got an OK deal for a boutique hotel and it's rated no.1 on tripadvisor! the decor and ambience were immaculate. we even had our own private patio, free wifi, CNN news and breakfast was excellent!

we got a *free ride* on the tour tram to see the cathedral and uni etc. and indulged ourselves with a glass of white at another hotel's terrace bar which overlooked the downtown. pretty amazing except the whole thing was ruined by this busker. if only i could stuff all the little olive stones into his stupid pipe!!!!

there's this street full of restaurants like HK - with a big fish tank to display/ show off fresh fish and lobsters and of course goose barnacles. we checked into this tapas bar and after 2 glasses of wine bunni's getting a bit.. hyper.... we continued our search in this wine bar O Beiro. the sommelier (is he one... hmmm...) recommended this local produce from Ribeiro - something similar to Sancere. gosh that was heaven!!!! and soon... bunni was too hysterical she was forced to down a strong coffee to calm herself down before making herself an extra fool/ disgrace...

the next day we took a short trip to a nearby fishing village. every backyard houses a small wooden hut and only later did bunni find out this's for storage not for smoking jamon =}

oh and it's santiago where baby fell in love with clams and cockles - without the smallest grain of sand.

first summer trip 2011 (1)

it's been a week since our first summer trip. it's truly a relaxing break with mini adventures. the tan on my arms is, surprisingly, intensifed or perhaps only my illusion. if only i could get Ipsa or H2O+ or full range of shu uemura... SU's only launched the green tea cleanser in selfridges last month =(

all aside it's one truly memorable and loving trip. thanks for being my best travel buddy/ chauffeur! and i've proved to be the best menu decryptor or spanish translator.

Day1 & 2 - Santander
so the trip began with a long/ no-priority-check-in queue at ryanair. indeed i's quite amazed by the stanstead express train it's quite efficient and modern. and apart from the bad serivce and very smelly cabin (the 2 spanish boys in front wore vests and they're sweating... with 2 'sea urchins' armpits it was some sight). what else can you say though ryanair's the only direct flight operator to santander. thank god it's only an 1.5hr flight and as soon as we touched down we felt the slightly heated breeze! the hotel was.... terrible - with the price we paid it was nothing but terrible. nonetheless the city made up to it! it's a very nice promenade along the quay/bund (may my architect/ urban planning friends correct me the differences between the two) and you can sniff the saltiness from the sea! everyone was craving for Regma helados! we found a very cool tapas bar/ restaurant called Bodegas Mazon. the vino blanco was disgustly cheap yet superbly refreshing which complimented with our octopus/ tuna fishball/ mushrooms (bathing in warm garlicy olive oil...).




we woke up to some.. funny breakfast at the hotel. the spanish sun was all the comfort we needed and we decided to hop on a ferry to a nearby island surrounded with sandy beaches for a nice tan (which unfortunately we ovedid it...). it's a beautiful beach just 30mins on the boat and quiet in the morning - before the spanish invaded. kinda like those in HK but cleaner! it wasn't warm enough to swim though, or i wasn't as brave as the little boy.



it's our last night in santander and the little alleys never fail to surprise you! there're always somethings round the corners! and so we found another local specialty. it's a museum of wine/ tapas bar with barrels as tables =) i simply couldn't resist the smile from the cod...

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Day 3 & 4 - Oviedo & Gijon

the car we received was very nice except they dont have any v nice radio channels. baby was so pleased with the navigation he couldn't stop praising/ giving a tap on its head. we headed east towards Oviedo. the spanish gov was granted so much funds from the Commission to build all these super highways! oh and i'd mastered the spanish of sparkling water aqua con gas! the drive was fairly easy (well as a passenger it's always the case =P) and scenic - mountains on our left and seafront on our left! along the way we saw quite a few wind farms on those complex terrains and i did think about mast and wake turbulence...

so with some pee-stops we soon found ourselves in oveido a very commercial town. with luck we got a v good deal out of a 4star hotel and their orange juice was a winner that baby secretly shipped a whole jar to our table 2 mornings in a row. apple must be the best produce in this region as it seems all waitors could do the magic trick of pouring cider for thirsty diners.

gijon's just a stone throw away we savoured ourselves in the sun and seasoned ourselves w very fine sand and the atlantic sea! it's the very first time we swam together hahaha. the downside is too many c9 around they could drive you nuts! or they got this from the history - romans did conquered this little town and the remains are still well-preserved along the coast.

over and over again.
when will this end!?
just when you think here comes a rebounce you are slapped right at ur face!

for f sake

loony

free falling.

i love bruises.

im a duran duran


so better leave me alone for the monday blues


before u get bruised.


the end.

用執著來報復
為何孤獨　學不會不在乎


ngor dou hor e ho jin kark.. hmmmm!

ho mung

fart jor din

maybe i need a break from everything.

im scared. so very scared. so terribly scared im trembling.
and i cant breathe.
i start to pray,
fingers locked into each other as tight as possible
they melt into each other
i mumble and mumble and mumble
words soon run out and mouth's dry.

i hate to be helpless. so very helpless. so terribly helpless im shaking.
and i cant breathe.
i start to wonder
if my prayers are answered
i cry and cry and scream
that i love you so....

"*$&$%^A^(!&

ngor jau fai bau jar lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ding nei goh fai rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

if i've a gun i'd shooot you right in the head!!!!!

ROAH

there's a reason why im so flat and round! im the perfect airbag/ dartboard no?

come on come on come on

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

u guys master the art of 'changing face' in szechuen! rarhhhhhhhhh

gau meng rrrrrrrr!!!! ho lar mung rrrrrr!!!!!! ging seung da yann lohhh ng goi!!
ho seung gong cho hau rrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

ngor din la! :S



take a deep breath and carry on!?

After All

After all by Luisa Sorbal. so sad yet so right.

im sorry for disappointing you. it's the very very last thing i want...

i remember i first hugged you into sleep and wonder how we got to hold hands so peacefully. hahaha

so it's the first time
- we watched jap cartoon together
- saw fireworks
- sunbathed on the deck
- we had lunsj on the little island
- we were spotted (and hopefully the last!)
- we tried darjeeling first flush
- i danced for you :P

i want to say goodbye to those dark nights but can i? i didnt mean to push you away... i simply didnt want to hurt you. could you just keep smiling for me? it sounds foolish no? i also simply want to tell you i feel so so so super lucky to have you.

Recap

- visited Frankfurt for the first time. Weather wasn't so good n it's v commercial like hk. There r some nice shops ard hotel n old churches. Hmmm and loads of jap n Thai restaurants. Thts about it.

- my very first conf on gas price. A bit excited seeing some old faces. Never mess w Russians n I really hv no patience for slow ppl.

- sorry for upsetting you... N it's quite terrifying....

- lazy sat n thx for picking me up. Now u r sound asleep like a baby hoho I could attack you! Just that I am too nice wahaha

- so super stuck w my new topic I wanna die arghhh n don't wanna go back to work nxt wk ;(

- gonna improvise Alaskan crab! Yay!

are you a hypnotiser?

am i a hypnotiser? i guess i am, but not a very good one.

does anyone have a trik to hypnotise me forever?

mali mali mo.

I'm a time traveller are you?

the sleeping beauty got awoken and she threw her toys/ ashes outta the pram. last yr i was shadowing Yeo at hilton when the volcano erupted. i felt bad for those people stranded in london and i hope this yr i wont be the victim..

my mood swing has been quite terrible for the last few weeks. i wonder if it's my brain serum, or puerly the oestrogen (if i do have some) or stress from everything. it's like a viscious cycle the more i think about these the more i hate myself and the more i try to talk myself out and the more i think about these. so i take a deep breathe and let it all out slowly hoping they'd evaporate.

maybe im stereotyping people, or men. maybe some women shout too. i was lying about me not being fragile... my eyes well again. how embarrassing... P teased me about my long lasting memory before i've got 32Gb RAM and prolly 1Tb storage. i duno. as though i cared. i wish i didnt.

it seems i have a few different faces. the sunflower, the dark knight, the penguin, the judy abbott, defo not the catcher in the rye (such a boring book) and of course the little me from moomin valley. i've drawn the curtains open and switched the lights off, unusual eh, it's pitch dark outside. a clear sky without sparkling diamonds. it's quiet and deserted, yet i heard some crimes in action. i tried to focus on the flicker of my candle but it looked like the tongue of the serpentine ready to take me in. the whole of me. i still belong to the long long night. sometimes it could be peaceful sometimes not. i listen to my heartbeat and forget about everything. and slowly, before i realise, i collapse - forever.

i hate myself

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself...............................................

happy summer's arriveddd!!
spending all my lunches on the greens munching on more greens!

is it true that i look so happy now? hmmm :P

thanks MT & bob for the belated bday dinners, plus the concert!! i really had the best bday but surely many more to come? hehehe

my fingers dance in the concert hall along Bach's sonata no.2 and handel's. it's been too long and it all gets toooo rusty..

=)

it seems awhile ago since the surprise paris trip. it's my best bday ever. 'does it feel like a birthday' you asked. dumbstruck i didnt know how a birthday should be. but yes it's more than just a birthday. i's loved by my colleagues and friends and you. :)

it's ur thoughts and efforts tht rili lift my spirits and make me glow. i miss pressing my head on ur arms or jus swinging strolling across the park. and telling u off when u put a long face for others. and dipping my knife into ur plate jus to steal a bit of sauce :P and ur strokes help me slp in peace. i knew i made the right decision that night across the table that u'll always be here to cheer me up and help me whenever needed. i promise to do the same.

on a side note it's really nice to see my beloved mini ME family and ex neighbor! omg i drank so much this wk really have to stop !!

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thanks for confirming my decision. i cant believe how i did that for so long.

and argh the bitch ll be back soon. im still cursing her and him!

another 365 days gone

a year passed in a blink. and life moves on. what have i achieved and what not. what have changed and what not. what have i become and what not.

everyone says i glow now. i look happier. i am.

it'll be a surprise anyhow. i haven't really celebrated birthday for the last 20yrs. the last 4 all ended up in tears.

thank you so much for everything and all the lil' promises. im ur lillie girl and dur er min perfekt mann.

x

an unforgettable week

it's been an amazing week. you've given me the best V's day present in my life. not the roses although they're really beautiful but the new opportunity. i was soo sooo soooo happy for you i couldn't even slp the whole night. haha

it's the first of many bdays that we spent. i hope you like the restaurant. i know you do actually. and we were entertained by the banker next to us for free, isnt this great? i love that specially designed mojito and your gin & tonic must be heavenly you downed in one sip. the panic attack was a minor yet lovely shock. thank you for everything. i mean it. i know how much time and it costs a lot for this rock. it's very clear with a sophisticated cut and colour. i love the claws they make it stand out even more. and it's not so big it sits perfectly well on my finger, whilst mine love resting on yours.

thank you so much for helping me out at work too.

simply love,
completely yours xxx

諗返好多野

e@伴侶／情人說送份禮物給你，但，他同時亦提議，「不如一齊去揀啦！」原因也許是怕買到不合你意的東西。當然這樣也是好的，既保險也有保障（起碼不用去換啊）。

不過於我而言，我情願收到一份不算十分喜歡，但驚喜搭夠的；也不願收到一份明刀明槍（？）的。男人不太明白，女人有時需要你話事（！），去挑一份你覺得她戴來／穿來漂亮的，而不是她自己去挑一份自己慣常會買的。因為，她已整天自己話事去買衣買鞋買包包了。

@他答應送一份什麼給你，但貴人事忙，你等呀等的，結果有二：一)你等得久了，什麼興緻也失掉，於是當收到禮物後，快樂減半；二)你最終自己去買來送給自己算了。

遇上這種無心裝載（ok，就當他是忙吧）的男人，可算是一大悲歌。唯一可做的，是。以。後。靠。自。己。

@當然也有這樣的事情，他無端白事送件風馬牛不相干的東西給你，例如家品或電器之類。而你是從來都不需要那件東西的喎。這個確實讓人很頭痕。

在這種情況下，只好道謝然後欣然接受。事後大不了，轉手送給別人。又或者再毒一點，拿去他家，說反正我們都快住一起了，先放你那裡先啦………。

so true!
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12 months gone quickly. now i ask if i deserve all these pampering. maybe you're right i just have to accept these.

look forward to the first cny tgt. i know we'll have more to come.

cant wait to hold u close. and i'll look after u like u look after me.

thanks for spoiling me. :)

when the ghost is still haunting me.........