Random blabbing

It's been awhile since i wrote. A lot has been going on and it's great to have time for a pause and think.

'You seem quite resilient' - i was told by this gent this morning. I'm not sure if that's true.

at times i'm still like a crying baby seeking comfort, yet on the other hand my ego is so massive i would rather disappear and hibernate, and then there is one more side of me that says be optimistic and i'll find a solution. as it's getting closer to the miserable big day, it might be great to have a little review...

3 biggest achievements

• cheerleading! woohooo
• building a team from scratch - put on a thinking cap and be accountable for shits!
• re-bounced and re-lived my life after a failed relationship - everything is better without you haha

3 biggest set-backs

• my degree, my degree, my degree... lets talk business instead of science!
• failing my team :(
• ruining myself as i wouldn't give up

rahh, eat my alive.

This time the years before...

x'mas display at Selfridges, Nov 2009

Selfridges, Nov 2009

Church, Vienna, 15th Nov 2010

a stroll in Amsterdam after a long working day, browsing my fave furniture shop, 

Nov 2011

  

Japanese art exhibition, Truman Brewery, Nov 2013

a fun day out with MT at Liberty, Nov 2013

Party at Soho, Nov 2013

i poured my heart out, and clicked delete.

as if life's that easy. this little video clip brought a tear - a happy one.

all these seem so yesterday.

the last few years have been a turmoil, with unforgettable moments and painful chapters. through the ups and downs i've tried my hardest, made some decisions, lost my dignity, regained my composure and re-lived my life. the bunni is once again smiling, and truly thankful to everyone who's colored my life.

b, in a funny mellow mood. xox

Saturday Rambles

2.55am.

bunni is up and thinking. roar!

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inequality - the word that favors lefties?

marx and many others have tried to build a utopia where there's no (or minimal) inequality. despite good intention, this doesnt exist nor achievable given the nature of human beings and competition is necessary. 

i dug out another article written by this gent Danny Dorling, i do agree with the grant scheme of things but feel that he's been manipulating a lot of numbers and stats. a powerful statement. why should we all be focusing on the 1%? What's the variance and distribution for the other 99%? whilst he blames independent schools are sucking money out of parents and not creating enough opportunities for the less fortunates, there're actually scholarships. everyone looks up to the Finns when it comes to schooling, but it's also about their taxation plan etc. all the same for me not having much sympathy for fat people. unless it's genetically-induced, most of them are just lazy bastards who munch on 5-guys and crisps and and booze. thats how they eff up their lives and become a size 20! why should we sponsor them to go on a diet i really have no clue. in the meantime, according to his article here, i completely disagree w london hosting most super rich and all down to the lax tax regime. it's also about government spending and budgets. at the same time, thats how the UK has regained its financial and economic positions by attracting these foreign investors, and creating an influx of new capital to boost our GDP...

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i wish i had more time to do and see and read more! 

Little People is still one of my fave artists. 

his work always brings me a smile, and reminds me of you. im so pleased we're still good friends and you're here for me whenever and wherever. i've learnt and experienced so much from/with you which i wouldn't have otherwise. =)

Some random thoughts...

1st October - the national day of China, we all gathered by the Chinese Embassy to demand electoral reforms, supporting our fellows in HK. The mass movement has swamped the news across the world which is remarkable. How the unrest will be settled I'm not sure. Obama can indeed leverage this opportunity for his own rating. 

At the same time, I've come to realise we as hong-kongers have always been an orphan and never given a say to decide our fate, at least our generation. We've been wrapped in a cotton wool under the British rule. Some say the Brits have led us down - have they? I don't think so (well, what more can you expect from Nick Clegg?!). We've just never learnt to be self-sufficient and independent. We don't even get classes at school to be patriotic, that's how we frame singing the Chinese anthem as being brainwashing. Nevertheless, over the last few years, there has been a twist and turn. People took to the streets and struck. Without doubts there will be more frequent movements in the coming days until a deal is signed... 

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so what do you do with a cold and fever? read read read read read and read! few articles on the financial times and economist caught my eyes. banknote printing and urbanisation. hm!

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Im such a happy and chilled bunni - even with a cold! :D Took my team out to bowling (and a secret celebration that my boss will be away for the next 5 days! huurrrrayyyy!)! It's been an exhausting week... how I managed that brain-wrecking 9am meeting was a mystery! but am glad I met some interesting people through work! 

What's next?

28th September shall never be forgotten amongst HongKongers now. It's been a remarkable chapter in history since 1967 demonstration (and of course this is before my time :P). For the very first time I, together with my friends and families, cried for the hometown. We all united with great spirits to fight till the end.

Don't get me wrong - I don't agree with everything the students are doing. Political reforms and free election in 2017 are still debatable. Staging such protests (without much strategy behind) is also questionable. It's however inexcusable and unnecessary to employ violent suppression to this degree. Why firing pepper spray and tear gas to unarmed protesters? These people aren't riots and there was no traits of burning shops nor cars nor guns... They are only hoping to voice out in the pursuit of freedom of speech and a truly competent leader for Hong Kong - a place we claim our loving home.

I'm intrigued to see how this will develop in the following days, in particular with 1st Oct fast approaching. 

*Do you hear the people sing?*

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On a separate note, maybe I should get back into the habit of writing. It's something I had once enjoyed and now my vocabulary bank account is in deficit.

With leaves yellowing, we can smell winter creeping in. With a white-girl mindset I need to work on my wardrobe and look again, as well as using this transition phase to cleanse my soul and meditate. The last 24 months have gone in a whirlwind with valuable lessons learnt (ahem, not learned!)! 

I've seen myself change and amazed myself on so many occasions. okay now I do speak like a narcissist. It's like a metamorphosis and reborn journey for me without going to Goa to torture my already very flexible limbs (and one of the conclusions is that i should establish my own business and charge these A-class celebs a premium to mend their mental minds). I've regained my funny charm and social life from a miserable abuse, learnt to forgive others but even more so myself, and embarked on more adventures - which's always the objective of my life. and for these, i should thank all my dearests for supporting me and being part of the journey! 

now i shall really get stuck into some boring readings - enough procrastination this morning. ciao for now!

Shout Out for Democracy - Ignorance is NOT a BLISS!

Twenty-five years ago, on a mildly warm summer evening in June, my parents gazed in front of the TV and tears streamed down their faces. The little naive 5-year-old wasn't bothered. She was kicking up a fuss for not being able to watch her fave soap. The screen was black, there were tankers and gun fires. She heard the news anchors, in their saddened voices, muttering something about a massacre in Beijing. That little oblivious girl was me.

Years went by, stories were told and heard. Some academics involved in 6-4 Tiananmen Sq protest are still on exile. During my schooling in Hong Kong, I was taught and raised with the value of democracy. I've always been proud of my little homeland - despite being a tiny dot on the atlas, it shines like a pearl in the Far East. I chose to live in London not because HK is like Syria. To me, it has always been a small town accommodating different voices and cultures, and prides itself on such dynamic vibe.

Yet, I'm outraged to see what is happening today. The pictures look so familiar but strange at the same time. I can't recognise nor associate with any of these. It's still a city which never sleeps, except it's being very restless tonight.

Why the need to suppress with violence? Did we not learn a lesson 25 years ago? I'm even embarrassed not being in town to support and be part of this. Shall we re-define democracy and human rights?

Please don't let history repeat and we don't need a bloodshed HK. Please also be a kind journalist and blogger - I've seen a lot of propaganda which is ominous. I beg you all support this protest with mercy and peace, and I urge the police rethink what sort of orders they're taking/ following.

*I should blog this in Chinese but please excuse my deteriorating writing skills*

如何回到當時　猶如情侶熱戀的那時
記憶可以　幻作一對蝴蝶飛舞在時光深處
荼薇紅過都變枯枝
血肉之軀會沒法保持
唯獨春天可以給記住